Tuesday, March 21, 2006
haha... actually i was typing my post few days ago... the suddenly the keyboard gone off... tmd... no choice but to save in draft... heex... tis is the post from monday de... on 20/3/06:
argh!! tmd, cant seem to open one file... tml off!!! to be exact, it's today... haha... goin out with aili for bag hunting... and see the movie yours, mine & ours... my frend sae endin very touchin... haha... contacted MJ!!! but tink she didnt pick up... wadeva... listenin to my immortal... i tink tat it jus decribes as what i am feelin now... so tired... tink saying is easier than done... haha... i can only comfort myself by sayin tat i am happy tat there is sumone who can give u happiness... haha...
i am so tired of being hereSuppressed by all my childish fearsAnd if you have to leaveI wish that you would just leave'Cause your presence still lingers hereAnd it won't leave me aloneThese wounds won't seem to healThis pain is just too realThere's just too much that time cannot eraseNow I'm bound by the life you left behindYour face it hauntsMy once pleasant dreamsYour voice it chased awayAll the sanity in meI've tried so hard to tell myself that you're goneBut though you're still with meI've been alone all along
the paragraph above this is the lyrics of my immortal... tink it is meaninful... btw... HELP!!! who is here 4 me? i really nd sumone by my side... yesterday quarrel with mum... today quarrel with dad... i beginnin to lose all my strength in me... i cant pick myself up and carry on anymore... it still hurts me to tink of the memories of u and me... as 4 my dad and mum... they are simply bias... because of wad? because im a girl... i hate myself being a girl... if i am not a girl... i dun tink all these would have happened... i really hope tat there is a person tat willing to lend me her shoulder to cry on... simply hate myself... y am i so sucks... always put a smile infront of others even when i am really sad... when i am alone... i cried... y cant i jus feel happy when i wan and feel sad when i am infront of others... jus cant do tat... dunno y... destiny is makin fun of me... i can have it... i cant own it... tat my life... maybe i am fated not to have u... i dunno how long i can hold on until one day i cry lik siaoz... if the motorcycle have jus knock me down and i will be free of everything... EVERYTHING...................
my l0ve f0r y0u* 1:10 AM
