Wednesday, April 19, 2006

bak to write blog aft sooo many day i went missin... appeallin to np failed... which means, i get to go nyp!!! such a "good" sch... everytime lecture cancell... i tink i sit and slack ard even more than i go lecturing... met a few friends... heex... at least i got FRIENDS!!! but WHY ALL BOY!!! my class onli have 2 gal including me... diaoz... one gal frm china which i not VERY close to... met many pple..." heard u go nyp appeal to np unsucessful... shld be in the digital media block ba" tat's wad i wanted to msg her... but i really dunno how to start a topic now... i dunno y i flare up lik mad... but a month has passed... my temper seem to gone... i really really really really really want to go bak to the old days we had... even it seem tat all the while u was ENTERTAININ ME or wadeva u call... i wanted to live bak the life of stupidegg... wanted you by myside... i wondered"did i ever learn to cherish you?" when u lose someone then u learn to cherish her... i begining to understand the meanin of LOSING someone... having a thousands of word i wanted to sae... but i dunno how to say...

"stupid fool... juz msg her lah!!!" word circling inside my brain... but i am scared of seeing her at sch... so i leave the digital media design block far far away... hmm... am i retarded? today i wore the puzzle necklace tat me and stupidhead have... neck sensitive so i took it off... chain it on my bag... ben took it off and hid it... i tot i lost the chain panicked... damn him man... then i realise tat u still stand a place in my heart... no matter how i tried to tell myself to lead a life with no u...

i am in a loss position!!! y muz i flare up? i don't understand!!! is it tat i really jealous or wad??? wat a damn retarded me...

I REGRETTED IT...

wish we can still be like wad we are in the old times!!!
my l0ve f0r y0u* 1:12 AM