Wednesday, April 02, 2008
im back to clean my really dusty blog =)
well, if u wanna know my current condition, i have jus broke up =(
kinda saddening, but i think somethings are jus like tat. even though tis is the last thing on earth i would wan it to happened, i guess i jus cant be the right gal for him bahs. may it's becos im too ugly, or maybe it becos im too fat. hmms, nvm. i dun need love. it's something tat humans will turn scary. out of jealousy, hatred and i dun deny i have a deep rooted hatred for him, for being so cruel to me. but im gonna cope over it. dun worry xD i have being reading the web about alot of stuffs regarding heartbroken relationships and how to cope with break-ups and it really works. 2 days ago, im still crying, like it's the end of the world. to be frank, i have this heart wrenching pain i never had b4 and i never knew i can lost appetite to my all time favourite KFC, even though i didnt wanna eat, i thought i will feel better eating KFC, but it jus proved me wrong. i know things gonna turn well, but i guess it's gonna take me a longer time than others. and now i still miss him, i do. but the heart wrenching pain is fading, i can feel it, becos i finally woke up, i always wanted to patch things up and i have imagine he'll come looking for me or something, but the first step to cooping with break ups is: NEVER GIVE URE SELF ANY FALSE HOPE. then u'll learn to crawl up. i realised. LOVE is like a border. throught thick and thin lines, the ends are met, but some borders can never meet, jus like LOVE. 1 word. NOT FATED.im cooping with break up and i am comforting benjamin, tell him we'll go thru this tgt. no wonder we are jie mei. break up also break tgt. hmms. at least he's happier than me. i jus feel happy tat he's feeling fine now. as for me, im fine. but the scars in my heart, it can never be removed. i dun wanna step into another relationship. not in 1 year not in 2 year. i rather die then to face the heart wrenching pain. it too scary. i have been acting strange lately. like i suddenly have the urge to cry from dunno where. wth. i can suddenly feel like crying while i was on the net look at the part of machine sorts, THERE"S NO LINK I WILL CRY MAHS. if i hear sad song emo or i saw something reminded me of him i cry i still okay mahs. abit wrong with me. I WAS CRYING WHILE LOOKING AT METAL FRAME FOR MY MACHINE PROJECT. it's totally no link.
heaven heaven heaven, pls, stop my heart from hurting.
and boy, you left your footprints on my heart
well, if u wanna know my current condition, i have jus broke up =(
kinda saddening, but i think somethings are jus like tat. even though tis is the last thing on earth i would wan it to happened, i guess i jus cant be the right gal for him bahs. may it's becos im too ugly, or maybe it becos im too fat. hmms, nvm. i dun need love. it's something tat humans will turn scary. out of jealousy, hatred and i dun deny i have a deep rooted hatred for him, for being so cruel to me. but im gonna cope over it. dun worry xD i have being reading the web about alot of stuffs regarding heartbroken relationships and how to cope with break-ups and it really works. 2 days ago, im still crying, like it's the end of the world. to be frank, i have this heart wrenching pain i never had b4 and i never knew i can lost appetite to my all time favourite KFC, even though i didnt wanna eat, i thought i will feel better eating KFC, but it jus proved me wrong. i know things gonna turn well, but i guess it's gonna take me a longer time than others. and now i still miss him, i do. but the heart wrenching pain is fading, i can feel it, becos i finally woke up, i always wanted to patch things up and i have imagine he'll come looking for me or something, but the first step to cooping with break ups is: NEVER GIVE URE SELF ANY FALSE HOPE. then u'll learn to crawl up. i realised. LOVE is like a border. throught thick and thin lines, the ends are met, but some borders can never meet, jus like LOVE. 1 word. NOT FATED.im cooping with break up and i am comforting benjamin, tell him we'll go thru this tgt. no wonder we are jie mei. break up also break tgt. hmms. at least he's happier than me. i jus feel happy tat he's feeling fine now. as for me, im fine. but the scars in my heart, it can never be removed. i dun wanna step into another relationship. not in 1 year not in 2 year. i rather die then to face the heart wrenching pain. it too scary. i have been acting strange lately. like i suddenly have the urge to cry from dunno where. wth. i can suddenly feel like crying while i was on the net look at the part of machine sorts, THERE"S NO LINK I WILL CRY MAHS. if i hear sad song emo or i saw something reminded me of him i cry i still okay mahs. abit wrong with me. I WAS CRYING WHILE LOOKING AT METAL FRAME FOR MY MACHINE PROJECT. it's totally no link.
heaven heaven heaven, pls, stop my heart from hurting.
and boy, you left your footprints on my heart
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