Thursday, November 27, 2008
in the past, i always dream, of how my boyfriend would look like, how sweet we will be, how we would go movies and sing K like any other normal couples, the normal days, i will be watching my dream guy playing basketball, and how i would sit beside the bench and watch. i used to dream abt how my bf will look and how broad his shoulders were, how lean he was, how disgusting i would feel if he has muscles. and how good he was if he was elvin ng x3. but in reality, things usually turn out differently. it appears the more you dreamed, the more things turn out differently.thru all the hurts u have bought me, thru all the pains i painsaking when thru and i almost died living a life w/o you. how i used to only sleep 2 hrs jus to get up to meet u early in the morning almost everyday.
my life is jus like the lyrics apologise.
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im holding on ure rope got me 10 feet off the ground, im hearing wad you saying but i jus cant make a sound.
you tell me that you need me then u go and cut me down
and now, i dare not dream anymore. i dare not dream of how you would change becos of me.
cos i dare not dreamed of being the special me.
im jus a bypasser among the crowds of pple with no particular direction, hope and my world doesnt shine like others.
the colours of my world are full of purple and black. it doesnt look pink neither it look bright.
the smile im so used to put on, when my friends are ard, doesnt make me glow at all.
deep in my heart, i trying so hard stopping my heart from bleeding.
you may call me a fool, cos i shld live for myself. but i would rather use my last bit of strength to walk as long as i could with u.
i dont know how much more u still want me to change.
i nvr look perfect in your eyes, neither will i be in the future.
im jus holding onto ure rope, hoping that it would not snap.
P.S pple are selfish. they cant seem to understand there's no shortcut way to heaven. they cant seem to understand that the only shortcut is by stepping onto pple to reach the heaven. IM THE FELLA THAT IS BEING STEPPED. im the one with grumbles and sleepless nights that my eyes going to be so zombilish. i desperately need to sleep. 1 day, i really would throw everything aside and be irresponsible. my smiles to u doesnt mean u can step on me agn and agn. tink twice b4 u do that. i have my limits too. so change before i snapped at u.
my life is jus like the lyrics apologise.
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im holding on ure rope got me 10 feet off the ground, im hearing wad you saying but i jus cant make a sound.
you tell me that you need me then u go and cut me down
and now, i dare not dream anymore. i dare not dream of how you would change becos of me.
cos i dare not dreamed of being the special me.
im jus a bypasser among the crowds of pple with no particular direction, hope and my world doesnt shine like others.
the colours of my world are full of purple and black. it doesnt look pink neither it look bright.
the smile im so used to put on, when my friends are ard, doesnt make me glow at all.
deep in my heart, i trying so hard stopping my heart from bleeding.
you may call me a fool, cos i shld live for myself. but i would rather use my last bit of strength to walk as long as i could with u.
i dont know how much more u still want me to change.
i nvr look perfect in your eyes, neither will i be in the future.
im jus holding onto ure rope, hoping that it would not snap.
P.S pple are selfish. they cant seem to understand there's no shortcut way to heaven. they cant seem to understand that the only shortcut is by stepping onto pple to reach the heaven. IM THE FELLA THAT IS BEING STEPPED. im the one with grumbles and sleepless nights that my eyes going to be so zombilish. i desperately need to sleep. 1 day, i really would throw everything aside and be irresponsible. my smiles to u doesnt mean u can step on me agn and agn. tink twice b4 u do that. i have my limits too. so change before i snapped at u.
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